I think the worst part is taking my jewelry off in the evening. I got all dressed up for nothing.

well WOW was retracted 3 days later. I kinda knew once i actually accepted it, it would be over. My life. Too Good to be true is right. Conversaton, and taste. . . never can get enough. sad! not for him. . . but for the fact that noone can love me for me. just who they are trying to make me out to be. I’m a happy fun person and now I have a guy looking for me for comfort cus his divorce is final in days. I am sick of being that person. Not sure if will ever happen becuse everyone had a past and I am a good nursemaid. Who will be my nursemaid?????????????? Pound through it!!!!  Wish it would ahve never happen cus i feel empty now and wish someone could compare on some levels. (unhappy risa)

Wow

Life can change on a dime. I should be doing homework but I thought I’d put a few thoughts down. I am exceptionaly happy right now. . . . almost too good to be true. I’m sure i’ll type when that happens as well. I know that the things I like are not good for me. . . . including food, booze, smoking, and MEN!!! <SMILE> I guess I will enjoy it while I can and it is good for sure!!!!

Again

I got lied to again straight up. It just makes me so angry. I was so angry that the muscle relaxer and vicoden I got today wasn’t needed as soon as I was done crying on my garage floor my muscle spasm was almost all gone. The adrenalen was pumping.

Smitty, Party of 1, Smitty par-ty-of-1

So I realized the other day while I listen to this guy chat with me. ~what I’m attracted to, is not what is good for me~ I mean I’m not talking ‘going for the bad guy’ type stuff. Just every day Joes out there that seem interesting are interesting for the same reason I think. They aren’t safe, they are flawed. There is something wrong with them. They have a problem I want to fix, or they have a hobby that sounds fun to me that is not one of ‘a keeper’, their life sound excited because they are unstable. Does everyone have this problem? I’m sure it goes for guys looking into gals as well, right? Besides the girl on girl action the ladies flaunt at frat parties to get the boys attention.

So as I type this I think, do any of the guys think I’m interesting, risky, or broken. . in that ‘I got to get to know her better way’?

Too say Hi!

I have been gone for a while, some sad things and hard work have kept me from my computer. Tonight is my last accounting class, Woo-Hoo! My team already presented our final team project last week because a member is leaving for Russia tonight so should be a smooth night for me. I learned a lot but it was a struggle and I always thought I was good with numbers. Ha!

I’m currently watching Housewives of New Jersey. Last night I watched Jerseylisous  Ha I must be having withdraw of the east coast for sure!!!! How fun is it to be in that big of a family, even married in. Yes there is going to be drama, but there is drama even between 2 people. I would love to make it to big dinners, holidays, wedding, birthdays and enjoy myself. Even if there is the normal tiff or snuff.  I am an only child but my extended family is big and I enjoy seeing them and there is never a dull moment. I just don’t get to see them often. A big family would not be a turn off of a guy I’m dating, possibly a requirement. Mother’s day is coming up I hope that everyone is planning on spending time with loved ones or say a prayer for those who have passed. I might be getting of easy because all my mother wants me to do is go shopping, dinner and join her for sunday evening church (she loves her new-found church, go Mom) I stopped by the Godiva store at Park Meadows Mall and picked her up some Milk Chocolate Carmel Gems, hope she enjoys them. Anything for MOM!

What  are all of you planning for your Mothers?

CEECEE S.

HiYa

Excited to have a place to speak, vent, laugh and cry. I have had a lot of changes in my life the past month and looking forward to trying the new begining. I need guidance but do not plan on leaving all my past or lessons learned behind.

Tonight after a day at work I stoped by a local wine bar to have a glass of wine before coming home and unpacking somemore. I have WAY too much stuff for this apt. The wine helps with parting with stuff I’d usualy have second thoughts about.

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